Untimely/Premature Death????

Every Mother’s Day my family and I go the cemetery to visit my Grandmother. She passed when I was 14 yrs old. This is something that my mother likes to do with my little brother and me and her sister every year. It gives her a since of peace to have all of us together. This Sunday I found myself wondering through the cemetery looking at headstones and I ran across Master Justin Antinio Miller Birth September 28, 1988 Died September 30, 1988 and then DeCresha NeSha Robinson Born December 8, 1980 Died October 8,1989. This triggered a question that I have been battling since My friend Keith passed in 2006.



I truly had a very hard time dealing with Keith’s death and while talking to different spiritual leaders I became more confused. I was told, “God promised us 70 to 120 years” and they used Psalms 90:10 and Genesis 6 to back it up. Then I asked, “So, are you tell me that Keith’s death was premature?”. Then they started to question his life style and his commitment to Christ and so forth. I never was given a straight answer.



I have had this conversation with several people and I have gotten several different answers. Yesterday while talking to good friend of mine he told me a story about an eight year old boy playing in the street who was hit by a stray bullet. The shooting was gang related and as result of the boy being shot the gang members turned there lives over to Christ. When I told this story to the spiritual leader he said that satan stole this boys life away and he used John 10:10 to back it up. “The thief does not come except to steal and to kill and destroy”. Even though the child saved all of the lives of the Gang members he feels that the child’s life was stolen. I have a problem with this!!!!



We all were put on this earth for a purpose and that is to lead others to Christ. It is obvious that this child’s life was taken so that he can fulfill his purpose. So to say that his death was untimely is just absurd. God doesn’t make any mistakes. When you look Job, Satan had to ask God’s permission to do anything to Job and that is the same with us.

I just can’t believe that there is any such thing as a premature or untimely death. Let me know your thoughts?????

Guard Your Heart!!!

Proverbs 4:23 Tell us to “Above all else, Guard your Heart, for it is your wellspring of life”. In reading this I thought, “This is so true.” If I never experienced bad relationships I wouldn’t be so bitter. Lol JK. Hey… if you can’t poke fun at yourself, you are a sad person. But seriously, think about it, how many of you are harboring insecurities from previous relationships??? Maybe your mom told you that you weren’t smart enough to be a doctor so you decided against going to medical school or maybe an ex lover told you that you were fat so you don’t wear certain clothes. It is amazing to me what people can say to make us change our self images. I know a lot of you are saying sounds like someone has low self esteem, but low self esteem starts somewhere. People just aren’t born with low self esteem; it is developed over one’s life. Me, personally, I was in relationship with a man that mentally abused me. I knew that I deserved better, I was just so detached from God that I didn’t have the strength to leave. I really felt like I needed him. I did everything I could to make him want me!!! I mean everything, I completely devalued myself…So sad, but true!!!!

Why didn’t I guard my Heart?? Why didn’t I take God at is word and realize that I was perfectly made in the likeness of him???? The same reason that you don’t…I didn’t want to be alone. I wanted to be loved, and I had too much pride to let it go!!! However, not wanting to be alone and wanting to be loved made me compromise myself and left my heart unprotected. When your heart isn’t guarded you subject yourself to all types of heartache!!! Jesus died so that we can have life more abundantly. This means that He died so that we can be happy!!! I had to realize that being happy was my choice!!! I had to guard my heart; but, most of all trust and believe God that there is a perfect man out there for me!!! So, I left. Now don’t get me wrong since then life hasn’t been all roses. But it s has been so much easier because I know that I have a man that loves me no matter what!!!!

P.S. This relationship strengthened my relationship with God and truly made me a better person!!! So I thank my ex for what he took me through because without him I wouldn't be the Jewel that I am today!!!!



Be blessed

I AM OUTTA HERE!!!!

When you are down and out, lift up your head and shout, "I'm outta here".

Most of you all know that I meditate every morning, mostly on Biblical scriptures, but this morning I pulled out my good old Acts of Faith for People of Color. It is a cute little book of quotes in which I find to be humorous as well as insightful. This morning meditation was "When you are down and out lift up you head and shout "I'm outta here", and that is exactly what I did!!! I am so over not being where I want to be in life.

Yes, I have a good job and make more money than the average 26 year old. Yes, I have a home and a nice car but, it seems that I am still not satisfied. Content, but not satisfied. One could argue that I am blessed and I should thank The Almighty for my blessings. In which I do. Don't get it twisted I know where my help comes from!!! I also know that everything that I have was given to me by God and can easily be taken away. However, that still doesn't change the fact that I am 26, not married, and not really into anyone or anything!!!! I just found out the day before yesterday that one of my ex-boyfriends had a new girlfriend. Initially I was pissed and then I thought about it. I asked myself " Chasiti why are you upset??? You don't like him for real... you just don't want him to be with someone else because you're not with anyone!!!!" That goes with all of my ex's. So today is the day that I have had enough of this mess!!!! " I AM SO OUTTA HERE!" This means I have come to a point in my life where I will no longer feel sorry for myself due to the fact that I am not married!!!

There is more important things going on in this world!!! Our troops are dying in Iraq. We have yet to bridge the economic/ academic gap between African Americans and Whites. Gas is $4 a gallon and I could go on and on!!!!! There comes a point when we all have to be sick and tired of being sick and tired, and I am there!!! So, I am challenging you to do the same. It is time to move instantly!!! "I am outta here!" is an affirmation, a statement of truth. It gives you power to no longer be tied with whatever physical or emotional attribute that is holding you back from finding and completing your divine purpose. Commit yourself to loose weight, go back to school get a law degree or to just be a better person. Leave that person alone that means you no good!!! Whatever it is that is holding you back tell it or them "I am outta here"!!! And remember you can do all things through Christ who gives you Strength!!!!!