Today is June 30, 2009, My last day being 27. As I reflect over my life I realize how blessed I truly am, God has been gracious to me over and over! I am so not deserving of all of my blessings! I have spent so much of my life trying to please others wanting people to judge me on my on merit instead of where I come from and my parents!
But I realize that I can no longer be ashamed of who I am or where I come from, because those things are the things that make me who I am. I know that my God’s grace is sufficient for me, for his power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
I have grown so much over the years. I have had some good times and some bad times! I have had my heart broken and I have done my fair share of heart breaking. I was talking to my BFF (Constance) this morning about her sister’s wedding and if you know me, you know that I am a hopeless romantic. I was all excited as if it was my wedding and she could sense it in my voice. She said, “Chasiti, you still believe in love and you are still hopeful.” I replied “Yes”, and we continued to talk like normal.
That conversation has had me going since 7 this morning. I am not bitter anymore. I am ready for love; but not at the cost of whom I am. See, I have dated my fair share of guys and tried to change who I was to fit them. If he wanted someone domesticated, I learned to cook; if he was into partying, I became a party animal, all for My man! But in trying to be what my man wanted I forgot about the things that were important to me. I did things that just weren’t Chasiti. Not saying that the things I did were bad, but they were not done because of my own conviction, they were done to please someone else! I have learned that you can’t make anyone want you and I will not try any longer! You see, I am perfectly made in the likeness of Jesus! I am going to live my life that way. I know there is always room for improvement and trust that I am working on me daily. But, I dare my self esteem issues to subject me to settle for anything less than I deserve. The bible says that a man should love is wife like Christ loves the church; not when he feels like or when its convenient or when no one else is looking! I am a Jewel with a lot to offer!
And yes, I have kissed a few frogs, but I know the next man I Kiss will be my prince!!!
I am single with no plus one and I cool with it!!!!
